Im 16, biual and closeted i like this boy?

Im 16 this year and a sopre in high school. I had chemistry last semester and there was this boy in the cl with me, hes the carefree type, he loves to talk about hes funny and goofy in cl. the boy that wont shut up but he talks about the most interesting crap. anyways a little bit in to the semester i started falling for him. Key fact: i act like my life is perfect and like im innocent and untouched by the world, i suck my teachers *** like a leech, and everyone truly thinks that im just a blind good boy, not a prep, just a good boy. I was igned to sit in behind him at first so you can imagine i was excited by this. everyday during last period i would just sit through the cl and listen to, lets call him logan, talk about stupid ****, weed, parties, skateboarding and . I would surprise the little group and join in on the conversations at times and got positive feedback. they started to befriend me into their little group. one day logan was really down so i asked him what was wrong, his usual buds werent around, he said that his girlfriend moved and broke up with him because the long distance thing wasnt for her. i tried to tell him i knew how he felt comparing his dead relationship to on i had in 8th grade. he smiled and told me thank you, i felt closer to him then, i had never seen him so calm and real. from then on we became closer, sometimes we would hold each other in headlocks and he would slap my *** which only made me want him more. i would go a little further and grab his face and go in for a kiss and he would never pull away i would have to stop myself but then we would just joke about it. as the semester ended he started to slowly pull away from me like instead of him coming to play with me i would have to move mountians just to get his attention. honestly i feel that he sees me as too innocent and naive to hang with him. this semester he looks right through me. i feel like **** everytime i p him in the hallway. i have this feeling though that he could be interested in guys. i used to wear tight pants and i would literally flaunt my *** around him just to see his reaction, not in a pansy sort of way, just very stealthily and he would peek and stare at me. maybe i just want him so bad. and also i can just tell hes opened minded, hes atheist, the ways he refers to are insane and if you met him you could just tell. i dont over exaggerate i swear im not paranoid, im being as honest as i can not changing facts in my favor. what i want to do is show up at one of those parties he talks about or just ask him to see a movie with some friends and get alone with him and just try something. maybe go in for a kiss like i use to and just do it this time if he goes nuts ill just pretend like i thought that he was going to move and laugh it off. if he doesnt care or say anything then im going to let my teen hormones lead the way because the emotional and physical attraction i have for him is explosive! i just want to know if anyone has a story or if someone would like to vent because i know how it is especially for the closeted. i dnt plan on ever coming out because i feel that ity is natural, but because of this ****** and hateful society i must not reveal any of this ever. good luck guys and tell me what you think!