Who else felt like this after giving birth?

When filling in the question about how I felt about my baby when I first held him, I feel bad because I didn't feel the way I thought I'd feel. I thought I'd be overcome with emotion and immediately inlove. I actually felt like I was looking at a stranger and I felt reluctant to touch and hold him because he was all bloody. I was on some stadol and the whole experience felt surreal. I didn't show these feelings, I went through the motions of what I wanted to feel and I was happy that he was born safely and was finally here. I feel bad that I felt that way. Should I not write that I felt that way in his baby books. I'm afraid I'll hurt his feelings later. Once we got home from the hospital, a couple of days later I was looking at the pics from the delivery and when I saw the one when they laid him on my belly, that's when I broke down with emotion and felt the way I thought I would. Anyone else experience this?